User blog:Forestpaw13/Not really sure how to explain this

Before I start this, I just want to say that I'm not attacking any of you. I know how hard all of you try to work hard here. I know we're all friends, and I know I haven't been editing much lately. I understand all of that.

But when I forgot to let y'all know that I was going away (which I'm sorry for), you guys, like, instantly started to replace me and that kind of bothered me. Like, I don't edit much, I know, but I usually just kind of hover. That's always worked for me.

So, when I come back, I am told that my rights are being taken away (which I never asked for in the first place), that I could be replaced as the leader of my project, which had nothing going on in it before I went on vacation, so I can't be blamed fully for that.

And then when I started editing again, and I'm not attacking you, Feathertail got all mad when she was denied the chance to be deputy. It made me feel like I really couldn't please anybody no matter how hard I tried. I mean, Feathertail, you tried so hard to become deputy and you edited a lot, and that's a great sign. And even though the reason for your edits was kind of defenestrated (SAT word! lol), you still tried hard, and that shows everybody that you try hard to get the things you want. That's a great thing. You had a chance to prove yourself. So don't get mad, please, that you lost the chance, be happy that you had the chance.

So I dunno. I just feel like I can't please anybody right now. I'm not allowed to go enjoy my summer and I'm not allowed to just leave without telling anybody, and nobody bothered to think "Oh, she might just be on vacation and didn't let us know." Like, I made a mistake, and I did genuinely think that I had told somebody in casual conversation.

So... yeah... think what you want, but this is what I'm feeling right now. I don't want any attention, I don't want any "Oh you're so great and amazing, I love you Forest and you're fantastic," even though it makes me feel good. I don't want people to explode at me, because I am actually trying to be nice...

Maybe I'll just disable commenting. Nah, that's too much work. xD

So, anyway, I'll take this chance to say that I'm going away August 18th-21st (Thurs. - Sun.).

Love, Forest