User blog:Shadewing/Venting time.

I really need to vent a little. Excuse any bluntness, language, and things like that.

Here we go....

First of all, I need sleep. A lot. I never get more than 7 hours, most of the time averaging 5-7, which, believe me, by the end of the week, leaves you pretty damn tired. The other day I got 3 hours, last night I got 6, and I wake up all the time too, which makes me even more tired....

Second of all, I'm having some...issues....due to a personal thing I can't speak of here. Basically, it has to do with me and another person, and it's sort of a self-hatred/guilt kind of thing. I can't really explain any more on this one. Ask me about it, and you're dead.

Third of all, my dad has been an ASSHOLE. PERIOD. He keeps bashing me in public and always makes fun of me and gets mad at me for turning the internet on, and then he always brings up the fact that I can't go to dances until senior year and that I can't date and he hates the fact that I have a lot of guys friends. >.>

Fourth of all, band is a PAIN IN THE ASS. I got fit for uniforms today and it was HORRIBLE. I couldn't do anything right. And then the lady got mad at me for forgetting to turn in some form and then I felt like an idiot. Plus, my badn director's been really annoying because he wants me to take lessons but I don't have time, and he keeps bugging me about it.

Fifth of all, I am just generally stressed due to the fact that I have to keep up in school, run to prepare for cross country, finish my 4-H projects for judging (there are three, and they are lengthy, believe me), play on a soccer team, take voice lessons, and practice for band and stuff. It's so frustrating! I can't deal with it all!

NOTE: If you call me out for whining or complaining too much or say I'm too soft and such, I will fucking explode on you. I have other things I deal with that I don't put on here, got it?

Thank you for listening. >.>